Studying Stones

I am out here studying stones
trying to learn to be less alive
using all of my will
to keep very still
still even on the inside.
I've cut all of the pertinent wires
so my eyes can't make that connection
I am holding my breath,
I am feigning my death
when I'm looking in your direction...

There's never been an endeavor so strange
as trying to slow the blood in my veins
to keep my face blank
as a stone that just sank
until not a ripple remains.
I am high above the tree line
sitting cross-legged on the ground
when all the forbidden fruit has fallen and rotted
that's when I'm gonna come down...

- Ani DiFranco.

I know this is not the intended meaning of the song, but for me it really evokes the feeling of psychosis: 'delusional mood.'

[untitled photo of zen stones], downloaded 5th January, 2010, from:
http://www.agimatec.de/blog/2008/07/robust-portlet-testing/