Structure

My new counsellor, Margaret, says that I am looking for a structure for my inner world.

I told her a while ago (and have thought for some time) that my old personal construct, structure, paradigm or whatever you want to call it, was thrown out some time ago, and a new one hasn't replaced it yet. As a result, I feel a bit like I'm floating in space. It may sound like a good thing to have no lens or framework through which to view the world, as though I am seeing clearly in an unobstructed manner, but the reality is it's very confusing and disorienting and scary.

This is what Jonathan Cainer (what a hero) has to say about the month of June for Sagittarians (Sagittarius is my ascendant):

'They say that if a wall is falling apart, we shouldn't try to paper over the cracks. If, though, we are only intending to live with that wall for a short while, it makes no sense to start knocking it down and rebuilding it. Perhaps those cracks are just the result of old plaster crumbling and not serious subsidence. Or, then again, perhaps not. In June, as Jupiter moves into a new sector of the sky and forms a conjunction with Uranus, you see how to knock down and rebuild an arrangement where many cosmetic repairs have been attempted without success. That requires courage and vision. But it's going to work out very well.'

The question is now, what will that new wall or structure be? Astrology, Advaita Vedanta, Buddhism, or some combination?

My little inner fundamentalist (hangover from my adolescence) feels a bit scared about any of these options. When I was growing up, anything seen as New Agey, or anyone who combined more than one form of spirituality, was a bit of anathema. Maybe that's why what will happen for me in June requires courage.

I really have to read more about Advaita Vedanta anyway. At the moment what I like about it is:
'God' and the self as one.
Non-dualism generally.
The interconnectedness of every being (I also see astrology as an expression of interconnectedness).

Quote from Jonathan Cainer taken from: http://www.heraldsun.com.au/lifestyle/horoscopes.

'Sagittarius, Aria Nadii' downloaded 29th May, 2010, from: http://mamamagic.wordpress.com/tag/sagittarius-moon/.